Pingu

I quite liked that cartoon..Pingu. I dunno why. I mean it seems quite retarded now. Who wants to watch dumb penguins behaving like humans and failing miserably. But it was cute in its own way. So were the other cartoons. I was little then. A big little boy. Now I am a little big *cough*man*cough*. When did i grow up. No fucking clue. Well that brings us to the question of what being grown up means. Coz if it means acting mature and wise then im still a retarded 7 year old. Bleah :( :( i wanna watch cartoons again. The ones on TV suck now.. I dont really get this Naruto stuff.

Fuck i turned 20 last month..bloody 20. I'm in my twenties now. Middle aged, tired, alone. Gah. Who wants to be alone in their twenties? I dont. My life is unfolding like watching Benjamin Button in reverse. hmmm.that reminds me. Must read the Great Gatsby sometime soon. For a guy who averaged 10 books a month 5 years ago, iv hardly read 5 in the past year. Sure i can blame it on hectic college life and all, but i think its just cos im growing old...too tired to do anything anymore. Old but still so emo man.

Damn my emoness. I so wanna not give a crap but i end up getting angsty about everything. Maybe its just the way i am. A great wise magical sage told me "Shhhheeeddaaapp, i know you" or something like that. Well she was right. I'm still bloody emo. Why does the world do bad things to me. I'm so misunderstood :( aagh. :( :( and all that sort of stuff.

Ok moving on..Deus fucking Ex 3 is coming out next year. I will have many orgasms playing it i'm sure. Deus Ex is the best game i have ever played and i will forever love it. Deus Ex 2 was a bloody disappointment. But i still love it cos it has the words Deus Ex in it *worship*. You non-gamers wont understand me. Noone does (sniff). I must buy a new system. My misguided attempts to stop myself from annihilating all counter-strike playing humans in college resulted in a self imposed non Graphics Card-esque existance. Its a very feeble existance. I'm not liking it much.

But it has helped me focus on other stuff. Which resulted in me learning a Cynic song today. Watte riff baby. Paul Madvisal is the shit. umma i love you.. Ok im rambling. Goodnaight. :)